Tuesday, June 30, 2009 ' 3:16 PM Y
fucking bustard '
i'm so bloody pissed with my mud colleague... so so angry................
wondering why am i so unlucky to have such a person in my office... stupid is not the word for him... neither does dumb suits him... i think it should be lazy, bustard, cunning... fuck!!!
i'm just too pissed le... on thurs when i trying to study for my test.. he called me at 11.30pm to ask me for help in locating my colleague as he cant get her through phone... he dont need to slp doesnt means that ppl dont nd to slp rite?? bloody hell...
yst i'm on mc... and yst night he text me... "Eunice, tml kindly come early not late external audit, msg from LT, tanx"... fuck... when i see this msg my blood boils... i dont mind u txt me to remind me nt to be late... but u dont have to use my manager as a backup... i know what is impt and wad i'm doing... i appreciate you in reminding me there is an external audit the nxt day... but u dont have to say its a msg frm my manager even though it is really a msg pass dwn by him... i hate ppl use names of those higher authority to ask me do certain things... i just hate it to the core...!!!
so... just like my normal character... i purposely late for work... i dont give a damn... even though my manager and MR is ard with the auditor... i just came in with a black face... i dont want to talk to him..
as the day pass... during noon time... he asked me a stupid qn... he asked me if he can sign the COC of the product.. fuck... he shld knw it lorx... i'm nt frm production y shld u ask me??? so i told him i asking LT to send it for me... n he said he will wait for my QA to be back to sign... so... everyone just wait lorx... y shld i make decision for him?? i get lesser pay than him.. i don have to carry so much responsibility... y shld i?? since he says wait.. so lets wait lorx...
and the final think that pissed me off up to this time is that... he sent me an email asking if i had sent out the quotation to my customer...!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! since when am i under him??? my manager didnt even question me.. y shld he question me?? and he cc the email to almost everyone in office.. including my manager... wad he wants to show?? he is working n i m not?? or he is concern of the thing or wad?? furthermore, i shld nt be sending quotation out n cc the rest in the office.. cos its price sensitive.. and y will they require to knw the price n all?? bloody hell... so i just click on the reply all.. and replied... i've sent out the quotation in the morning. this makes it seems like i did my job and he is too slow in asking me abt it...
and... even normal sending of quotation to customer, most of the times i didnt cc to my manager and he didnt even ask me anything.. so wad makes him have the cheek to ask me?? when i tell him abt customer thing.. he doesnt seems to bother... nobody likes him in the office.. even my manager who doesnt want to talk to him anymore regarding to work.. cos even if we tell him anything.. he doesnt even really bother abt it... wad is the point??
AAANNNGGGGRRRRRRYYYYY........................
AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH....!!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 28, 2009 ' 11:15 PM Y
surpriseee... best n tired bday '
i'm so so happy... got all my desired presents n had a lot of pleasant surprises...!!! went to meet kaili they all for bday dinner on 25 June... initially had already make plans with kaili, steph, wk, n fang.. but wk last min cannot make it.. so no choice... on that day itself.. veron called and said she had no one to acc her for dinner... so she tag along... surprise is that.. fang made a diy bday gift for me... she spent a few nights just to make it for me.. so sweet... n i got my desired bag.. i love it at the first sight... thank you ppl for the money spent on the gift.. n also.. veron went to get flowers for me... so sweet.. happy happy.. even though i have to study at night.. but i'm still very happy...
and...
on my bday itself.. i stayed home the whole day to study... till evening time.. i went to rest a while by taking a nap... and the nxt thing i know is that... mx, von, n meli... POP up outside my room and wish me "Happy Birthday"... wahahha... i nv expect them to come over.. so sweet of them... hahaha... and they got me the bag that i like... haaha.. i got so many bag nw... hehex...
went to have dinner with sam, lian, von, mx... haha... not bad larx the food.. nice place too.. den we went to clubbing..!! i made a membership card... cos if open 1 bottle and making a membership card is like no diff in price lo.. so i made myself one... we drank and drank... and mx vomit.. opps... this time is her le... bang is like so shock lorx... haha...
i drop my debit card.. =( i've called to lock the card le.. so no worries.. and they sending me a new one soon... think of the bright side.. i can have a new card.. the old one is gg to spoil soon le... hehe...
went to attend a relative wedding today.. super tired... reach hm nearly 5am this morning and wake up at 9am to prepare... wahahaha... dat night i studied till 5am and slp till 7am to go for test... reach hm slp at ard 2pm and wake up at 5pm... the amt of slp i had for the past few days is like... so little... omg.. i nd my slp.. don feel like gg to class tml... feel so tired... think i nt gg ba.. go hm rest better...
k le.. that's all for nw.. will update more when i gt things to update.. haha...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 ' 3:07 AM Y
argh... '
i cant believe i'm still awake at this time!!!
its not what i want.. bloody hell.. tot i've finished my part for my project.. yet.. i still have to do someone's thing.. he just say he dont knw and didnt really offer to help till almost an hr ago whereby i already struggled so long le... pissed... its nt my part even... not as if i do the calculation and i will know every thing about it... o please.. i still have to struggle for 2 nights.. and what the hell he doing?? playing facebook game?? what the heck...!!!
he shld be doing a lot of part.. yet he only did like the min. part.. damn.. gd luck to u on the peer evaluation arx.. haa... guess i no nd to slp le ba.. its 3+ le... tml stil nd to work worx..
mama ask me to get urgent leave.. but horx.. if my admin didnt come how?? end up i still have to do it... den i still need to leave early for sch... hw?? shld i or shldnt i??
Sunday, June 21, 2009 ' 3:37 AM Y
sUrPr|sE...!!! '
surprised... that is all i can say... i nv expect they will celebrate my bday for me... cos none of them said anything... and its seems like just a normal pri sch gathering with couples attending.. and also another 2 'new' member to the group... the 2 are still my pri sch friend.. just that we are from different class... haha... wy was so funny.. he didnt remember me.. and dont knw my name.. after talking to me for quite a while.. he suddenly asked a question... "wad's ur name?" hahah... i've guessed it... so i took the name tag that tim had done for us and show it to him...
had a good chat with all of them.. and my stomach muscle hurts cos laugh too much le... so much entertainment...
we moved to cafe cartel cos tanapol n his gf have not had their dinner yet... we eat n chat till yx arrived.. both maree n yx was talking and suddenly yx ask me to go toilet... so my natural reply is.. "do wad?" cos maree is near her and she don wan to ask.. when we were back.. maree n wz were away... for quite some times even... when they were back.. wy was passing some message to mh.. and the rest just look behind my back...
hmm... this time round i feel something happening.. and i guess that they will be bring a cake for me.. so i tried very hard not to turn back.. but i just cant resist and turned.. haha.. i saw wz den i wanted to take a better look.. the rest ask me to turn back... haha.. and i knew it... they bought me a cake and also a bouquet of flowers with doraemon...!!! and the birthday card is giraffe...!! my fav... n i heard that they wanted to get a coach wristlet for me.. but for local store they don have white colour ones... its only available oversea.. so they didnt manage to get me a present yet... but i'm looking forward to it...
actually maree wanted to get the renoma bag for me... but it seems to be a little off white.. so end up they didnt buy.. but who knows... i like that bag.. and have already told veron they all about it le.. so no choice she still have to stick to the coach bag.. but anyway... thanks all for spending that amount and putting the effort for me...
feel so happy... although i'm a little sianx cos all attached le.. and when go out u all stick to bf.. but now.. think my pri sch grp have a little more ppl le.. at least gt another girl who is nt attach to acc me there... and a little more click to the guys.. although sometimes still nt very used to having so many guys around... but.. thanks...
i am looking forward to the other celebration... and pressiess... hahah... but still the surprises and all... gonna slp soon... ^_^
Sunday, June 14, 2009 ' 11:09 PM Y
nightmare... '
had this dream at night.. so scary... i dreamt of myself getting bitten by 2 dogs... one on my ear and another one at my neck... there are lots and lots of dogs barking...
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. Alternatively, it indicates a skill that you have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it signifies some inner conflict within yourself. It may indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness.
To dream that a dog bites you on the leg, suggests that you have lost your ability to balance aspects of your life. You may be hesitant in approaching a new situation or have no desire to move forward with your goals. Alternatively, it symbolizes disloyalty.
If the dog is barking ferociously, then it represents your habit of making demands on people and controlling situations around you. It could also mean unfriendly companions.
To see ears in your dreams, suggest that you need to be more responsive or receptive to guidance and assistance from others. You may be relying too much on your own judgment and intuition. You need to listen more closely to what you are being told. Alternatively, it signifies your immaturity and lack of experience.
To dream of pain in your ear, indicates that you will be receive some bad or offensive news.
To dream that you are being bitten, represents your vulnerability regarding some unresolved issues or emotions. You may be pestered by a problem or obstacle. The dream may also be a metaphor indicating that you have bitten off more than you chew. Perhaps you have have too much to handle
To see your neck in your dream, signifies the relationship between the mind/mental and the body/physical. It represents willpower, self-restriction and your need to control your feelings and keep them in check. Consider the familiar phrase, "don't stick your neck out" which serves as a warning against a situation.
To dream that your neck is injured or sore, indicates a separation between your heart and mind. Alternatively, it could represent something or someone is literally a pain in the neck.
all of all.. i think i'm too stress ba... my mind dont seems to be working with my heart and so... i dont seems to be able to put up the strong self le.. or shld i say i've reached my limit?... i dont know.. from the dream.. it seems lidat..
Day 5 without my maid... '
its the fifth day... everything still managable... the washing n cleaning have not kill me yet.. only the mornings to work... can nv wake up early to do the offerrings... haha.. and had cab to work everyday... damn... she will be back soon... yeah...
went for dinner with my pri sch friends... Tanapol came to SG for work purpose... haha.. we had our dinner at KFC cos he loves KFC to the max... even he is full.. he still wan more..!! omg... haha... went to yellow jellow first.. but they said the music was too loud.. they cant talk.. so end up changing to minds' cafe... the journey from one place to another place was like so far... haix...
photos taken at yellow jellow... my mood suddenly plunge after i tripped and fall after the long walk... after so long.. its my first time falling le... lucky there are no bruises... only a small cut.. nth much... but i dont knw y i will feel like that... cried and still feel like crying after the games... i didnt lose worx... i still win... but.. just don really know y...
think i've frighten them again... but i really cant help it... i so feel like hidding myself and isolating from the rest of the world... dont want to face ppl and dont want ppl to ask me any single thing... but i dont think this can be archieved...
they planning to go Sentosa next week.. but i really don feel like going... i scat i will fall again.. haha... i cant really walk much.. if not my back will ache and pain.. but if really were to go Sentosa.. having to climb up of the stupid bus and all the walkings... omg... i just don want to imagine... i really feel like giving it a miss.. but i dont think i can... how am i going to do this? haix...
my back aching now after the long walk... to and fro... shall go to bed le...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 ' 10:49 PM Y
day 1 w/o maid... '
Day 1: woke up late.. cos i slpt late the other night.. just to cook myself maggi noodle.. and after eating i gotta wash up the dishes... dont have the time to make my own milo and prepare for the prayer table... haix.. gotta cab down to work... tried to come home early to wash my clothes... but first of all is to have dinner out.. so i dont have to wash the dishes after eating... haha...
done with that... i'm so confused now... tot of dropping my marketing to minor... cos at that time i'm really dragged of doing projects and all... sick of it due to the setback that i had experienced... but now.. after talking to my manager... tot of giving it a try again... but i'm still confused.. is it really what i want? or is it just because of my character that doesnt admit defeat..? i really not sure le... i still have till july to sort out my thinking and prepare myself to do what i've finally decided...
well... i've received the BEST birthday present...! it is mid-term test on 27 June...! bloody hell... hahaha... had more or less planned how i going to celebrate my birthday.. and the plan start from 25 - 27 June... but now.. i gotta cancel the one on 26 June de.. which is on my birthday itself.. just to study... sianx... had arranged my leave on that day and plan to stay home study... gosh... i guess this is the most memoriable birthday celebration i ever had ba... hahah...
future seems to be so blur and far... dont really know what i wanna do le... guess i gotta really change my mindset and adapt to the dog-eat-dog world out there...
Jia You ba... ^_^
Saturday, June 6, 2009 ' 1:17 AM Y
don't UnderStand... '
i just still dont understand y ppl change so drastically... its not a little.. its not mild... but it is so drastic change that i really cannot understand... y is it like that?... is it cos my the ppl they get to know or the situation that they are in?... it seems like changing in a blink of eye... dont seems to be able to talk to... they just turn their back on you... and maybe to the extend of badmouthing u?... i dont know... humans are so so hard to understand... so complicated... i dont feel like thinking of it le... just let u be ba... u dont seems to be happy when with us or so de... if u wanna leave.. jus say so ba...
went to celeb fang's bday on thurs... hahah... gave her a surprise by letting her thinks that she only meeting me to kbox... planned with veron, aili n kelly to surprise her... bought her fav. cake and her fav. gift card... really dont knw wad to get for her.. she like guess.. but recently there dont seems to be any bag frm guess that catches my eye... so bought her a gift card.. so she can go buy it.. there is a credit of $100 in it lo...haha... she is so touch that she cried... hahah... happy happy happy...
kelly left early on that day... so she was not in the photo... is glad to hear from aili that she had found her Mr. Right.. and is happy with him... congrats girl... hope to hear the wedding bells from you soon ba... hahahah...
oh... i've forgotten about it... dat day went car wash with yj and fang... haha... so interesting.. only get to see ppl wash car alone and nv been to those car wash where u let ppl wash for u and u are sitting in the car de... hahah... so interesting... when they start to spray water.. i got a shock and yj saw it lo... so paisei... hahaha... but not bad.. quite fun and the car is clean within minutes.. hahaha...
Monday, June 1, 2009 ' 1:30 PM Y
learn to believe in myself... '
WTF...! pardon me for being so valgur... but i'm bloody pissed after reading an entry... guess i should really trust my 6th sense instead of he says she says..
well... u may ask wad is my 6th sense... well.. i myself can judge the guy base on my willingness in talking to him... if i'm able to talk and disturb that person... showing my 'true' self.. the guy is consider a rather gd guy in reality... but if the person who i dont really wanna talk to or giving him a one word reply and all... or maybe even having difficulty in talking to him... the guy is consider a relatively bad guy...
y am i saying this?... cos i've experienced it since the very first r/s... well.. lets not go too far.. take R for example, i know for the fact that i cannot really communicate with him and not being able to show my true self in front of him... result showing... R is really not a gd person... as for friends' bf... when i'm able to talk to him and/or disturb him the first time i met him.. it is proven that they are better guys... and most of my friends' bf are really gd to my friends...
so if were to really think of it... that person is not a very gd preson base on my 6th sense.. but i didnt really there to bother abt it... and also didnt really notice it... cos i have some 'difficulties' in talk with him... on the very first day i met him... if u really go think abt it.. i guess u think so too...
after reading someone's blog.. i feel that he really falls into that category... ha.. wad he think he is?... charming prince?... nah... his acts are really so kiddish... it seems to be wad i've did in the past... years before... but not nw... however... he tot me a great lesson... nv to judge a person by its appearance, action and even comments frm others... i have to learn to believe in myself... and really have to post certain test on them to judge n gauge if they are real and all.. cos at times.. 6th sense may fail too... haha...
