the bigger cup is mine... the other one is wk's johnnie walker with coke... haha... think he love it...
went to dbl o on wed... the gal/ladies nite... well... reach there quite early.. ard 10+ ba.. cab dwn after i won mj at maree's place... haha... got myself high dat day... not really clear of wad i'm doing in the dance floor... gosh.. but lucky thing is that... everything seems to be alright... mx is rather high as well... end up both of us cant look after each other... =p
went back at ard 3... manage to be awake and clear... went back with mx... haha.. and i totally cant slp when i reach hm... woke up early nxt day and went shopping the whole day with veron n kelly... shopped the whole vivo and harbourfront... came back empty handed as i dont intend to buy anything.. haha... went to yx place to bai nian.. and torture maree... shaving off her leg hair... haha... super funny.. seeing her scream... had a great time ba these few days...
hmm... maybe will stay at hm tonight ba... to rest or wad... tml still gg out le... kk... dat is all for these few days de update... tata...
i'm not sure what others will think when i list down all these reasons... but i just think that i'm not ready to accept ur love and all... i know that in a r/s either party will be giving more than the other.. but it will be a struggle for him.. cos i have no feeling for him and that to try to fall for him is a torture for both... i can try... but a part of me still want to play and all.. n him on the other hand will have to let me out to play or what... seeing own gf with other guy i think it's a torture... esp for ppl who are more emo or what de...
once i've set my thinking on certain issue there wont be room for negotiation... altought i know i will make the wrong decision at time.. i know i need someone who can look after me... i know i need a lot of things.. but i don't want to force things to happen..
well... i still think that we are better of as friends... it will be easier for communication... i'm not someone who will really go for looks but will go for height and feeling... if i wont really able to share my thinking and problems with the person... i guess i'm not comfortable in doing so at all... to me this is a very important issue... cos this is wad i m in the past r/s... which is not a healthy one.. i don't want history to repeat..
the past is just like a nightmare for me.. i want to walk out of the nightmare... i don't want to be idling around in it.. it's really very hard on me during those days.. and i don't want anyone to experience it because of me... and i don't want to be the one who is like my ex...
nonono... it's not the way i want.. i'm still happy with wad i m and what i have now... i don't want to change my current status and all... i will consider gg into a r/s when i feel that there person is the one that i'm comfortable with... and m happy to be with... but now i've yet to come across one...
so why rush into a r/s that may or may not work out?... just wait patiently and soon the one will appear...
*i'm sorry if i've hurt u or so... but seriously i'm not ready yet...*
after reading kelly's blog and say the word sashimi.. i suddenly have the crave for sashimi... asked my friends out for dinner at suki sushi.. well.. it's nt a bad place for sushi buffet.. sashimi is under the menu for buffet.. so.. haha.. it is worth it.. had 2.5 plates of salmon sashimi.. the price quite worth it ba.. nxt time can still go.. super full and bloated nw..
did a very stupid thing jus now.. haha.. but it's nt the first time le.. went out at the wrong floor when taking lift home.. so stupid.. walked out.. feeling the place is so different.. den notice what is wrong.. haha.. went in the lift and continue taking it up.. duh.. so dumb..
been listening to this song.. felt its super nice and sweet.. it's Taylor Swift - Love Story...
will be getting my results soon le.. but dunno when... think is this week ba... pray hard.. hope everything will be alright ba..
*you be the price and i be the princess*
even nw i'm updating my blog i still feel super duper slpy... cant stand... everyone pls go off so i can take a nap for a while.. super tired.. headahce and all... cant get catch frm ppl for slping...
*quick quick go off..*
i would like to delicate this song to that someone.. both are heading diff direction and what is said before may no longer be there... 一路把过去甩掉 忘了曾经说过要一起到老
so envy him... i want... he says if my another manager allows he don mind contributing 3.5days of his leave to me... haha.. i really need those leave sia.. need it for my studies... my exams and my projects...
well.. guess i'm really very lazy le.. if u wan to view the pics the i refer from the below post.. please kindly go facebook to see.. hahaha... sorry arx...
end up went to Phuture with wk, kelly, val, wc n the rest... trying nt to cry when waiting for wk n gf to arrive.. but still.. like i say.. my eyes are like tap.. once i went in to Phuture.. not long after that.. i cried.. and it's none stop.. the tears jus roll down like nobody's business... drank a little.. n kelly gt drunk.. faint...
left me n wk n the rest in the club... they are not really my type in club.. don reali knw hw to dance with them.. haha.. n wk have to dance with his gf cos she sticks to him... left me alone...
but.. lucky thing is that i saw someone familiar in there..guess who.. haha.. its han sheng... wow.. it's like almost 3 yrs since i last saw him.. he didnt change much...end up dance with him.. if nt i will be bored to death in the club... his friends are damn hot.. haha.. and passionate.. bt quite gd looking n tall larx... nt bad lo.. but too bad.. he is taken.. only available in club.. haha..
quite nice of him to send me home.. cos wk have to go off early cos of his gf.. sad.. den hs send me home.. super shag... cos have not really have enough rest cos of the countdown party and nw year gathering with pri sch friends.. went out with mx on sat... tired..
tml have to work again le.. sadded... tata...
this is a brand new year le... my new year resolution... hahah... not to let the history repeat.. have to learn my lesson.. no more flings... 2008 is over.. now is 2009 le.. new things...
i had so much fun this year... i believe this will be a better year than before...! went to siloso beach to countdown.. this is a good experience... have to try it once in a lifetime... ya i know there are lots of ppl.. but.. its really enjoyable.. the ppl there are so high.. yx is extra high as well.. haha... the fireworks super nice... looking into the sky at the beach.. it's like having fireworks above your head.. wow.. like it..
the 987 DJs are there... and Shan was there too... haha.. he is so tall... there are diff genre of music.. but i still like R&B.. really dont know how to dance when it was trance.. techno.. electro.. etc... haha.. the whole thing is so grand.. and there really got a lot of ppl.. mx n i found out that we still prefer to dance.. haha... but only R&B music.. fun.. it's been so long since we enjoy clubbing/party again... haha..
when we plan to set back home its a torture... we have to walk all the way out.. it's so so far... after walking on the sand.. dancing on the sand.. it requires more strength and all.. my legs now are super tired and my back is aching.. haha.. gosh.. we set out at 3+ and reach harbour front int at 4.30... we had our supper/breakfast at the hawker there till 5+ in the morning... wanted to take cab home.. but there are lots of ppl.. end up we have to on-call cab... haix...
this afternoon have to meet my pri sch friends... its pot luck.. n i brought fruit salad.. i'm super lazy and tired to go out.. end up took cab over.. haha.. they were playing twister when i reach.. haha... its so funny.. the guys are all tangled up.. poor thing.. had so much laughters... had our dinner by the pool.. everyone is so fun.. disturbing each and everyone.. its just like during pri sch days..
we gt yx vodlka to drink.. cos everyone wants to see her high high look.. and how quick she can get drunk and high.. and as per expected.. she is high after finishing a cup.. haha.. nw everyone knows the limit of yx alcohol.. haha.. we were den playing with sparkers.. and using it to write 2009.. and we managed to do it.. haha.. see when can post it for u guys to see.. haah...
as usual.. this time round we dump wz into the pool... and wz pull maree into the pool.. and the last one is thiong.. hahah... fun fun fun..
will be having more party.. tml may be gg to the arena with wk and the rest.. haix.. i'm so tired now.. wanna rest.. but think will be after this wk le.. sat gg for movie with mx.. den sun gotta go to my god-grandma place.. haha.. busy lo.. but have to larx.. cos nxt time wont be able to go out so often le.. lesson starting soon..
*await for the brand new me*