Monday, September 14, 2009 ' 12:13 PM Y
expectation '
i think that i'm expecting too much... am i?...
i'm told in the face that my admin is lazy... after few days of observation... indeed... i think she is... but there is no evidence of it... its merely my perception. am i expecting too much from her... or am i suppose to expect more on her?... i usually think that the amount you are paid will be the amount of work you do... but i currently doubt so now...
she is some one older than me by at least 20years.. and is said to be under my supervision... but than the things she do, is just normal data entry and ordering as well as arranging dispatch... things dont seems to be as easy as before... my manager expect more... and i have no choice but to expect more from her... to her maybe she will think it is ok... but to my manager... he will think that i did not do my part well...
things seems to be going out of control soon... to the extend that i think i'm doing the things and making the decision... a simple thing cannot be done and she will ask me to do it... taking fri for example... i'm constantly on the line with customers and all... so i wont be able to make another phone call to my other customers... she.. being my assistant suppose to help me if there is really a need... all my back end staff keep calling and asking about the data... and she still have the cheek to tell me that customer says will send in 5min and now is already 6min... but she did nothing...!!! expecting me to do the rest...!!! even normal delivery to my customer i have to arrange... these few days i keep asking her to contact my dispatch and all... but she did not always do that... she take it that as if she didnt hear me...
this is not happening once... or twice... but several occasion... omg... guess she is just taking for granted that i will do everything...
i've been expecting a lot from co-workers, family and friends... to the extend that i'm not sure where the fault lies... its always said expect the unexpected... but then... i'm always expecting things to go on my way... am i being spoiled... becoming a spoiled brad?...
a lot of things happen recently... i am just to wear out to go handle and say about all of them bit by bit... hope i'm not running into any depression state... but come to think... i really enjoying staying at home more often than before... home never be the same as the past... maybe is that the lifestyle of my family had changed... more bonding and more home-like than before... i never like home when i'm young... but now... its another different case... i just dread to go out after work... sometimes even weekend...
*everyone is changing...*
