went to celeb mx bday in the morning... we were suppose to meet at 10.30am... end up.. all of us left home at around 11am... and in the end meeting at ard 12noon instead... hahah... what a nice one rite?... lunch at sakae.. nice... my fav. sashimi...

went to underwater world.. n dolphin lagoon... and i have to rush another bday celebration again... haha...

went down to veron's daughter bday... den to st james for ah lian's bday... so so tiring... reach home and knock out... i'm so tired can..? fall aslp when i'm on cab home frm sentosa le.. o my.. lucky i manage to wake up... if nt i dunno where i will go again le...

well... was feeling kinda awakard during the bbq.. cos last time.. i was introduced to the others as someone's soon to be gf... bt things change.. and it is really 180degree change... to the extend that i dunno y i should be there... managed to talk to 2 of louis' friends... till nw i still don rmb their name.. so.. its ok... and the 2 are the ones dat know me as 'someone's soon to be gf' hw awakard it is... when he arrived.. totally no communication was done... and i have totally no mood to talk to that person... given my mood for the day was gd... only talk to the 2 particular person and stick to fang n her bf... when they left.. louis n veron made effort to talk and keep me accompany.. cos mx they all still have nt had their dinner... so no pt going dwn early.. haha...

louis manage to tell me of myself.. what i am in work and my stubborness and all... he makes me think of what i want in r/s... but then... what i want are just fairy tale... i am still not willing to face the reality...

i've changed... and i'm nt sure have i change for the better or for the worst... change to cover everything frm others... hide behind a mask... forcing everyone to think that i am ok... not willing to face failure and oppose to what ppl think is the right thing to be done... am forcing myself to the extend that no one can help me...

what i really am??

not forgeting to thanks YM for keeping me accompany with the sms-es... keep my brain processing just to reply his sms... and make sure i am home safely... thanks for that... whenever i drink a lot.. he will be there smsing me and wait till i reach home den slp... n my friends who are concern of me as well...

ThaNk u...!