2008 is rather a bad year ba... so many things happen.. have to fan xing... everything is so terrible... broke up with R... screwed up myself... depliting of health... on n off mood swing... keep on falling sick and so on...
well.. have to really start to study and get good result for the year 2009 le.. this is a must sia... i want to put everything to a stop on 2008... don wan to screw up myself and my life le.. no more... have to wake up..
next year will be a busy year... cant tired myself up... have to complete my degree.. get my degree... this is the most important thing to do le..
other thing like mood swing and all cant be help ba... jiu jia you lo.. looking back at 2008 haix... i'm such a failure.. fail in everything... have to wake up and be myself le...
gosh... feel like crying again... my eyes are like tap.. haha... well.. think i will be ok ba...
may everything goes smoothly in the year 2009 ...
it's so fun there... disturbing the guys... and friends' bf... haha... poor minghao... keep on got bully by me.. i asked him to bbq the food.. den complain abt the food... cos it's 'chow tar' haha.. keep on scolding yx bf.. haah.. and scream at maree's bf... opps.. poor tim have to stay there to bbq for everyone...
went up to exchange our x'mas gift with the pri sch friends.. and called up samuel to write for maree's card.. was disturbing him by asking him to report to chalet at 8am the next day after his duty.. but he was saying he wil be dead beat den he said he will report to me after his duty den... haha.. he was just laming... i keep on disturb him saying to throw him into the pool again.. our main target.. poor him...
well... i'm so tired dat day... i slpt the whole sunday away... woke up at 10pm for dinner den slp at 1am... haha.. i'm a real pig sia... opps... guess i will post the photos only after they upload it to the com ba... happy waiting.. haha..
enjoy myself during christmas eve and day... although i wasn't feeling happy those days.. but i still did enjoy myself... went to mx hse during christmas eve.. had dinner and dessert.. went out for movie after countdown.. to amk hub.. watched 'yes man'... it's so funny and rather meaningful.. say 'yes' only when u think of doing it... saying 'yes' will open opportunities for you.. but do not say 'yes' to things that you do not want to do...
this is what i got from the girls.. it's the individual presents that we give each other.. opps.. i've missed out meli's christmas hat.. haha... well.. i got a nail polish and a 'mouse rest' from wq.. thanks... had so much fun in Mc... we were then rotting till 5.30a.m. to catch the first train/bus home... i reached home at about 6.30a.m...!
went to bed once i got change.. just in case mama catch me reaching home so late.. haha.. no choice.. woke up at ard 3.30p.m. when maree call.. haha... too tired le.. got prepare and meet them at far east... have to acc maree to do manicure and pedicure... well.. it was actually nt that bad lar... haha.. we went out as a grp... maree with her bf.. yx with her bf.. me.. and tim... orchard is real crowded... terrible.. after our dinner we walk to mrt to take train home.. along the way.. we saw ppl removing the deco for Christmas.. that is like so fast... it's nt yet midnight and the deco had to be removed... efficient.. haha...
tml meeting mx for shopping.. yeah... can buy new clothes, shoes, and all... i'm nw so looking forward to maree's bbq le.. hah... this sat.. it sure will be fun and enjoyable...
hope my emo-ness can go off quickly.. don always so emo le.. think i have to keep busy and all to make myself feel happy and numb myself from all the troubles and thoughts... but.. hw long can i decive myself?...
now.. look forward to the next year!!!... haha...
meeting them tml... everything has to be completed... my christmas card is still have way through only.. wow.. guess i have to stay up late to complete it le.. tml still gotta work.. dunno is there half day mahx... if so i can go home rest before i go out... it will be a tiring week for me...
on 25 will be going out with maree to do manicure and pedicure... it's like around half a year since i last had my nails done.. haha.. i think i sounds like a bimbo.. but bimbo are for ppl who are pretty and give superb figure de.. but i'm not worx... so cant classify as bimbo... prob can be classified as dumb ba..? cos of brainless...
but another sad thing is that... recently there is this mediacorp artist who suffers from MD... come to think of it.. i had this grand aunt who suffers from MD and she passed away due to it... kinda sad... there is really no cure for this kind of disorder... the prevention may not even come in handy... was rather worried for myself as well... i'm still young.. there are lots of things that i have not done...
my christmas wish to santa... "i just wish my health maintain as it is and everyone is healthy as well" thank you santa.. may my wish come true...
when i saw them.. it only took me few mins to burst into tears.. there are to many mixed feelings that are hard for me to explain.. maree and tim were pressing me for the reason to cry.. but i just cant really say it out.. too many things come together.. too many upsetting moments and memories just keep on screening in my head.. i just cant get it out of my mind..
after that, i feel so much better... guess i've shocked them... it's been so long since they last seen me cry.. esp maree.. part of the reason for me to cry is because i'm touched by them.. they are so sweet... althought it is jus a simple act.. but it's enough to touch me...
when heading back home.. i heard the song "because of you" by Kelly Clarkson... it's so... nah.. i don't knw hw to put it in words.. it just bring the flashes of the past up.. every single event seems to just flash through... and i just cant stop it.... i'm feeling so incomplete.. feeling so empty... with all my busy schedules i am still able to surpress all those negative feelings... but i guess by surpressing it will me make feel worst..
here is the mv to the song.. but i cant put the video in.. jus follow the web: http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/3HhosJRn0I8/ ba... this is an old song.. everyone will have heard it.. but i still like it.. it's just so meaningful...
last bt nt least.. thank you ppl... i will be stronger..
my legs are so tired... my back as well... end up we decided to pamper ourselves by eating buffet steamboat.. although the food is limited.. but it's still better den nth...
one of my friends is reading the book "men are from mars and women are from venus" and she told us this phrase...
"men are motivated when they feel needed... women are motivated when they feel cherished..."
was sms-ing samuel the day before.. and debating about being guai... i keep on teasing him of being a bad boy.. and he keep on fighting back that he is gd.. we came to a conclusion that he is not that bad... haah.. with rooms of improvement... and he says that i'm a nice girl.. haha... so nice of him to say that... but.. haha.. he said that cos that is the only thing he can say to a girl.. hah... well.. to conclude it.. i still think that he is quite a nice and gd guy larx.. a gd catch for singles.. haha... who wanna know him can let me know.. i try to intro.. nt bad looking also larx.. haha..
*i wanna watch my twilight*
i don't knw what he wants... he was asking me to take care of myself when i go clubbing and all.. don do the wrong thing.. den he ask if i'm gg home yet.. and next he said.. "all in all i jus want to say miss u"... guess it is too late to realise it le ba..
i only reply his first 2 questions and avoid replying the last one... well.. the last thing he said to me on msn is that.. if i'm gg clubbing again.. can call him to send me home.. but i guess.. i wont call le ba.. if not i will still get myself hurt from his action.. he will agree to send me home.. but at that point of time... he will be nowhere to be contacted.. it's no point to turn back le.. it's too late for him to regret..
ppl will say.. if u cant be a couple.. you can still be friend... but.. the feeling will be so different... i still cant really bring myself to talk to him and all...
*look forward and move on*
actually i wanted to go hg mall to return book and buy the neccessities for my Christmas card... will be doing cards for my girls... they are so sweet... haha... they do make an effort to hand-make Christmas card for everyone.. need to go shop for present also le.. need to buy so many... 1 for my Poly friends de exchange gift... 1 for my "dear hubby" fang... 2 for my Pri friends... and 1 for Pri friends de exchange gift... wow... it's a lot...
went to develop photos just now... and will need another additional photo if not waste money.. haha.. so we took a photo in front of the machine... haha... actually was at Harvey Norman using the machine to develop the photos.. it's so cool... never thought it is so interesting.. haha.. next time can go develop more photos le... yeah..
it's been years since i last took photo with her le ba... don seems to find any photo of her in my com... haha.. this is finally the only pic... well actually there is lar... i'm just too exaggerating only.. haha... but it's like... less than 5.. haha... think probably 1 year 1 photo... haha...
*pardon me for my spelling* thanks...
i like this photo... it looks like those photo on post cards... but this is taken from my phone instead... i simply love this... 
haha.. i like this pic.. but mx says she don like.. hah.. end up i cant ost it in facebook.. but.. haha.. i put it here.. guess she wont mind ba.. haha..
haha.. can see that we really know how to entertain ourselves... especially with the photos...
went to clubbing with wk last week... it's his virgin trip.. bt he don't look like new to the club... haha... he said he wanna go again... but guess he wont need it le ba... he just got himself a gf lo... haha... from his facebook the pic.. can see that the girl is pretty and cute... congrats him o... wish they can last long long ba.. haha... jia you o.
haha... lotsa pictures... after that day clubbing... is time to study for my exam... i'm super stress last week... so many things to study.. and its different from the past... i used to be able to absorb the information easily.. but.. now.. haix.. it's different le.. i started my revision 2weeks ago.. but i don seems to be able to absorb anything...
i went to perm my hair le... still ok ba.. but some ppl say quite mature.. some say very curly.. some say quite cute.. some say not very much diff... haha... i lazy to post the picture here le.. go facebook to see ba.. haha...
yeah... finally can rest le.. exam over!!! haha... but now i will start to worry about my result le.. it's over it's over.. can enjoy my rest at home... so miss my home and the rest time... now then i understand how it is to be at home.. used to go out frequently.. now.. how i wish i'm at home...
well.. there is this friend of mine who wanna go file for a divorce... maybe there are reasons behind it.. i don know.. but then... in the first place what is the reason for getting married?.. what about the child?... every family has it's own story.. guess she is still immature?.. well.. i dont know... but i think will have to really reconsider about it ba.. getting divorce is not an easy thing.. from an outsider point of view i think her parents-in-law are quite nice person le... guess.. the final is still hers... there is nothing we can do ba... it's her life le.. k ba.. i go watch my hot shots le.. that is all for now...