Thursday, October 30, 2008 ' 5:00 PM Y
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finally completed my assignment after a week of struggle... esp yst night... slpt at 4am and woke up at 7am for work... continue my assignment in office.. and now... it's done... 1 down.. but 1 more to go... will be having lesson for almost everyday.. including sat and sun frm this week onwards... this is a torture.. i will be so so tired... but.. lucky i'm on MC next week... at least stil have time to rest.. but wad about the week after... will have to work and study le.. no time to rest le.. omg... need to jia you le... super tired... haix..
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 ' 3:13 PM Y
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6 more days to my wisdom tooth extraction le..!!! so scary... don knw how will it be like le.. help.. have so many things to worry for le.. need to complete my assignment and submit by tml.. if not thurs.. don feel like dragging to fri le.. but i am only like 1/4 through... have a long long way to completion.. omg.. no time to think abt other things le.. concentrate on my work.. jia you... n... sat is my paper le.. den will have sushi buffet... yeah... haha..
my yummy sashimi... hehe... all time fav... a treat to myself after my paper... haha.. ~heard a news from someone... which is of wad me n mx expected... the fear in me starts to grow... kinda worried of the outcome... what can be done?.. if end up i'm the one who is alone how?... haix... ~
Monday, October 27, 2008 ' 2:05 AM Y
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haix.. feeling so emo.. but i cant show it out.. not wanting anyone to be worried for me.. i want to cry.. but tears don seems to roll down.. wad does a smile show?.. wad can you read frm my smile and laughters?... is it misery?.. lonely?.. sad?... troubled?... i have to be strong... cant cry.. cant be emo... i need to complete my assignments and test... everything is waiting for me to do... jia you.. i can do it..!!!
Saturday, October 25, 2008 ' 9:35 PM Y
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again and again and again.... been going clubbing every week... once a week... omg... reasons for gg?.. haha.. same as mx.. we are just feeling the same.. that is the reason... hmm... is there anyway to make a person cry??.. haven been able to cry recently... been bloated up le.. everything is surpress inside... have to let out.. bt how?... it's been so long since i'm like that le.. how how how??? is it due to my current environment..? cos i have to be strong.. cannot affect my work.. so i cant cry..?? haha.. i also dunno le... haix...
Friday, October 24, 2008 ' 4:41 PM Y
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omg... sad sia.. so scary also... went to visit the dentist jus now... cos the gum ard my wisdom tooth is swollen... so painful.. for days le.. the dentist was saying that the did not grow out straight.. that is why it affects the nerve and my gum.. she said it will result in 2-3 days of swelling on the gum.. 2-3 days of swelling on the mouth.. and 5 days of MCs!!! scary worx... i don knw if i can take the pain or not le.. bt if i don take it out it will be worst... i've set the date to be on 3rd Nov le.. so it's like ard 10 days to it... she said i have 5 wisdom teeth lorx... does that means that i have to undergo this 5 times!!!??? arghh... help...
go out to relax le ba.. tata..
Thursday, October 23, 2008 ' 3:16 PM Y
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MC again... at hm nw.. so lazy to do my assignment... and the dateline is... WEDNESDAY..!!! 1 week frm nw... omg... need to start.. bt hw?? no mood worx... cant settle dwn to do it.. haha.. heard frm kelly dat G broke up with his gf le.. den he gt cry... haha.. when i gt bf.. 1 wk later he gt gf... den when i break off with him... ard 1 wk later his gf ditched him... maybe it's like wad he said.. start fast end fast ba... when i saw dat frm kelly sms.. dunno how shld i react also.. haapy? sad?.. haha.. like no feeling... haha... don say i bad larx... well.. hope he is able to get over it.. well.. he shld and he have to get over it and move on... everyone is saying.. u cant get someone gd frm clubbing area... although some r real lucky to get a gd guy/girl frm there.. bt.. hello.. not everyday is sunday... have to wake up... be realistic... if it meant to be.. it will be... if it's not.. it will never be.. no point crying over spilled milk.. live life to the fullest... haha.. why m i so worked up??.. haha.. no idea.. guess singlehood is a better choice for me nw... i jus love myself more than others... i will stil protect myself with my 'shell' than to let others stab on me... tata... try to put my head to do my assignment le...
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 ' 2:58 PM Y
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Monday, October 20, 2008 ' 10:08 AM Y
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looking forward to the next outting/gathering... super fun... but it will be kinda hard as everyone is studying and/or working... but we will try to make some time out.. went for xuan's bday on sat... most of the pri sch friends came... although it's a bit boring initially.. but after dat it's super fun... Samuel was late as usual... and the rest of the guys decided to sabo him by throwing him into the pool.. haha... we bluff him that we are playing game and that have to take out all the personal items frm the pocket.. next we took photo by the side of the pool.. and.. after dat all the guys throw him into the pool.. it was so fun.. haha... after dat was xuan... cos it's her bday.. haha.. 
this is during the cutting cake time.. when everyone is still fresh.. bt very hot and stuffy in there.. nice one...
this is where the fun is from... throwing ppl into the pool... if possible will add in the video.. haha.. but the quality is not so nice.. always complaining that the guys around are short.. but when come to see my pri sch friend.. they are quite tall actually.. not so bad le.. haha... it's good to have them around... although we do lost contact for a while.. and they do act like a pri sch kids when they meet up... haha... but it's super fun...
~looking forward for the next outting~
Friday, October 17, 2008 ' 3:31 PM Y
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did this quiz in facebook... haha... player or lover? guess wad i get?... haha... i'm a party animal... omg...
you love to party, but when it comes to having sex you have ur buddies/girls to watch ur back, you dont wanna wake up beside some fat ugly guy, wondering what you did last night. You like to party, but take it easy.. at this pt of time i m ba... funny..
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boring day... nth to do in office nw.. haha... looking forward to tml.. bt den i'm afraid will scare off most of my pri sch friend.. haha...
dat day during my prensentation for CB... it's like so paisei lorx.. haha..
everyone like to pass the cue to me... first is Vanessa who wants to pass the next presenter to me whereas by right the next presenter should be Wei Tian... next is Wei Tian who wants to pass the next presenter to me whereas the next one should be Jia Hui... wa... the whole class was like laughing when Wei Tian announced the next presenter is Eunice... haha.. now the whole class know my name le.. so paisei... i wanted to be low profile in class.. now i don think i can le.. haha...
hmm... wad kind of excitement can i find for my life.. it's like so boring recently.. nth much happen.. nt like the past.. can go shopping..
R msg me... i dunno hw shld i reply... bt i wan to knw he msg me for wad...
~feeling kinda lost~
well... i reply him just nw... bt end up he didnt reply me... wth... might as well don sms me...
Thursday, October 16, 2008 ' 4:47 PM Y
falling sick again... '
haha... ppl gt love sick i gt clubbing sick... didnt go for clubbing for a week n i gg to fall sick soon... i cant afford to fall sick now le... gg for bday party this sat.. nd to rush for assignment and prepare for test le... nd to study.. cant be sick.. super no mood in doing things.. haha.. ~boring life again~
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ' 2:31 PM Y
finally '
finally i get to go shopping.. went to bugis street and bought a top, a dress and a shorts.. hehe... for less than 30bucks... after so long.. finally can shop and buy things... since i start sch.. i'm like so lifeless...
met this guy a bus stop on Monday at hg area.. he was like saying hi to me.. so i say hi back to him lorx.. cos i tot i may know him.. bt end up.. i don knw him.. haha.. he took the same bus as me.. when i alight.. he was saying bye to me.. den i jus nod my head... i saw him again yst nite.. my phone has no batt le.. cant find ppl to talk to n help me... den he sit beside me in the bus stop... den i heard him asking 'can i knw u' but i treat it as i didnt hear it... so scary.. dunno will i see him again tonight or nt... but i hope not... i don wan.. so scary..
i like this... jus don knw y.. haha.. this look better den the other one.. heex... and i like the curl of my hair.. waiting to perm it...
this is another work by veron... looks a bit weird larx.. bt still it's nt dat bad... haha... so boring nw.. still nd to work and do project... so sad.. will let my hair down for this week.. and start to study nxt wk le.. must be very tired soon le..
~busy busy week soon~
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 ' 11:10 AM Y
yeah!!! '
Yeah!!! 1 project down... finally finish my presentation... bt there are like 2 more to go?.. terrible... i wanna rest for this week.. no project or revision... haha.. next week need to rush le... concentrate on studies... opportunity cost for this is not being able to go out and all.. more tired.. bt.. it shld b worth it..
this is taken for my project.. so forceful.. haha...
Monday, October 13, 2008 ' 11:04 AM Y
my decision '
hmm... i finally made my decision.. i've decided to end it le... don wanna continue... i don wan to have a r/s just like the past.. i dont want to be the one to get hurt.. i don wan to be the one to get ditch... you can say dat i'm selfish.. but dat's human nature... protect oneself rather den getting wounded... i'm just afraid dat he will tret me like how i treat R.. i don wan to experience dat.. nonono... if i reali wan to have such a r/s i rather go back to R at least he is able to provide me in the financial aspects.. not WY.. bt.. reason for the break up with R is dat i don want to have this kind or r/s.. don wan to be neglacted.. i need attention.. dat is y.. moreover.. i don have time for bf now.. i need to concentrate for my studies.. i need to do my projects and attend lesson... no time for anyone.. i need my free time to meet my friends and acc my family.. and not forgetting my rest.. so.. it's nt advisable to have a bf nw ba.. don wan to drag his time also.. yup.. dat's all.. ~i've finally regain my freedom again~
Friday, October 10, 2008 ' 10:41 AM Y
interesting... '
will be so so busy n tired le.. got tonnes of things to do and complete... no time for shopping... no time for clubbing.. no time for friends... no time for baby.. no time for family... no time to rest... wah...
i heard from kelly dat G has a gf le.. haha... happy to hear dat.. n i gt my baby before him... opps... if i reali go MOS last wk i think i will bump into them ba.. so it's stil kinda a good deed... haha...
well.. found this from one of the website... kinda interesting...
~促进感情“八字真言" --> 给男人的“ROCK” and 给女人的“STAR”
R-Routine: 要刻意地将可促进感情的小举动，变成生活规律。
O-Open up your heart：对女性敞开心房，表达关爱，除了用口说，日常小举动更贴心。
C-Contact：通过拨电、传简讯等小动作，让女方知道你在想着她。
K-Keep it positive：女人对负面的语气很敏感，男人说话时切勿粗声粗气。
S-Sex：有研究显示，男性最能从性爱中获得Oxytocin（“促进凝聚力”的荷尔蒙，能使人更有恋爱的感觉）。
T-Touch：男人需要更多肢体接触，才会有亲密的感觉。
A-Appreciation：男人是渴望讨好女性的，女人要能体会他的用心。
R-Respect：尊重男人的日常规律和习惯。
~rest more & work hard~
Thursday, October 9, 2008 ' 11:32 AM Y
boring '
hmm... my life is like so lifeless... everyday is a routine... so boring... there are so many things for me to do... but i jus cant sit down to do it... tonnes of work to be done... several commitments as well... i'm so tired... need to hand in 1 assignment and having a test at the end of the mth... baby ask me nt to fail my test... i hope i wont.. but i'm just too tired and lazy to do... all i think of is slp and relax... he wanna go find job.. but den dunno wad he can find.. he's like so desparate for a job.. he told me he stil considering gg The Arena to work.. the timing is like 7pm to 5am lor... to think this kind of job shld be 6 days basis le ba... lidat i don have time for him.. he also don have time for me le.. even talking on the phone will b a problem also le... sobx sobx...
~time to work~
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 ' 2:48 PM Y
if only... '
if only things continue lidat... if only i can feel how much he cares everyday... things will be so much better le.. finally i'm able to say wad i wanted to say... he's like prompt me to ask him.. bt i wont expect much ba.. cos... the more you expect.. the more disappointed you will be... hope things can go on smoothly...
~expect the unexpected~
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 ' 12:36 PM Y
i'm so bad '
i told WY dat i gg to forget hw he look like le.. den he pause a while dunno wad to say... den reply me.. sure not..? wad a gd memory u have... after dat i told him if lidat i think horx... nxt time if i see him on the road i may not recognise him le... den he sounds kinda sad... i'm like so so bad.. when he is sad or wad i feel better... m i a saddist?? 
hope everything will b smooth n clear... like the pic. above... yst one of my uni friend fighten me sia... i've been keeping a low profile in sch during bridging... but yst is my fist official time talking to Alex.. he was asking for my name den he said ya he heard my name before... den i was like kinda shock... after dat without asking me how many modules i'm taking this sem... he is able to tell me dat i m taking 3 modules... wa... scarry sia.. i nv tell him or talk to him before lehx... haha
~trying to open my golden mouth~
Monday, October 6, 2008 ' 12:19 PM Y
ms piggy '
hmm... i reali start to forget hw u look like le... given the rate we are nw... well... i personally still think that we are nt stable... we have quantity talk bt nt quality talk... bt it's still a bit better den the past whereby i don even have both quality n quantity... think will nd some quality talk le ba... if nt i think wil b hard to maintain... i know dat u have to be honest to each other... but there are certain things that i cannot be honest with him... moreover.. will he be honest to me as well? at times i compare him to R... which i knw it's wrong... i gt tell him a bit also.. think he is kinda sad ba...
~ur little ms piggy~
Sunday, October 5, 2008 ' 5:40 PM Y
dream dream dream '
been dreaming quite a lot recently... i dreamt of wy this morning... i dreamt dat i went to meet him and ya.. hugged him... well.. went to checked wad it means... and this is wad i gt... to see ur bf in your dream, represent your waking r/s with him n hw u feel abt him... If your boyfriend is away and your dreams of him involve a lot of touching, signify how much you miss his presence and have him being nearby. The dream is telling you not to take the day to day things for granted. Learn to cherish the smaller things in life. think i gotta do wad i feel le ba... nt to take him for granted...
baby... '
feel so bad to tel a lie... haha... was on the phone with him yst nite.. tot he had went out with his friends so i called him rather late... but he stonned at hm yst as well... he super blur lorx... so tired... he was asking me hw many guys i dance with dat nite.. bt i lied to him saying none... feel so bad.. hope he wil nt gt to see it.. haha.. if nt i reali wil nt be able to go club or wad le.. heex...
so happy lorx.. finally have gd rest at hm... don even wanna study... it's been ages since i can reali rest at hm.. slp, eat and play at hm... baby.. i miss u... bt this thing is always hard for me to say out.. think i reali nd to bring dwn my ego le.. this is the lesson dat i learn frm my previous r/s...
forgotten to post this.. this was taken after i finish my graveyard... and drinking my long island tea... haha.. think i look drunk ba??... i reali cant stop gg to club.. nt at this pt of time... probably u give me few more mths... try to stop before u go ns... trying...
~learning to b a better girl~
Saturday, October 4, 2008 ' 3:52 PM Y
Phuture + Wine Bar '
went to club again... was so upset with WY also.. den i got ask him to go.. he wanted to... but the citibank thingy is over le.. so he went MOS to find his friend to drink... den he was asking me nt to drink too much... think nxt time reali nd him to go club with me le.. if nt i will b like dancing with so many guys lo... haha... bang with me... he's holding my Long Island Tea... jus in case i finish within another 15min... haha...
the 3 drankers... we look so high n drunk... n mx stil haven finish her graveyard worx....!!! haha... i reali drink a lot again le.. although i promise him nt to... hmm... wad i drink?... haha...
graveyard + long island tea + lambo (share) + beer.... wow.... graveyard is power... 1 cup and it's enough for the night.. it starts slowly... haha.. nxt time if baby is with me i can try snow white n seven dwarfs... from the menu... it's the killer... baby i think wil reali nd u to go club with me le.. if nt i will reali b dancing with lotsa ppl le... dangerouss...
bang is like super drunk... haha.. he drink more than me... he is like... graveyard + long island tea + lambo + AK4 7 + 3 beer.... wow... he is like so paisei today... haha.. wanna dig a hole or go to the mountain le.. heex...
~this girl is so dangerous~
Friday, October 3, 2008 ' 9:42 AM Y
bored-ed '
i start to feel bored with him le.. don feel any confidence... think it's reali dat we started off too early le... it seems like i gt nth to talk to him le.. everyday same old routine... he is still small boi... yst talk to him on the phone.. nth much to talk... have silent pause every now and then... after asking the same old thing like 'how's ur day' , 'wad r u doing' , 'where r u' , 'where u gg tml' , 'wad u doing tml' and things lidat... after these... it's like nth much to talk le... nd to go reconsider le... ~the more insecure i m... the more i go to club...~
Thursday, October 2, 2008 ' 12:04 PM Y
oh BoY... '
at times i reali think he is a little boi le.. bt at times he seems to be quite sensible to me.. hmm... so funny... dunno wad to think le... this is the first wk i knw him.. and tml wil be the first wk i'm with him... bt i meeting my friends tml... haha... disturb him stil.. saying i go clubbing... haha... think he reali will feel insecure... haha..
dunno dunno dunno le... i'm like 'pian xiao di di' lidat lo... my r/s with him seems like my r/s with R... jus dat diff position... nw it seems like i'm R... when i'm free or so then give him the call... when i'm free or available then ask him out... it's jus like R.. when he knws dat i wont b free.. he will find his activity... either stay at home or so... when he knw i gg to club.. he will try to make it... jus like wad it used to be like.. bt i feel this is so wrong... i'm like making use of him... life will be so bored le... no more clubbing... no more playing... how i wish... haha..
mx with graveyard... von with AK47 haha... 
mx n me... i've finished my graveyard within like 15min... haha.. mx's graveyard is like stil full... haha... 
this is more clear and white... haha... 
von n me... with the AK47... haha... 