Friday, August 29, 2008 ' 11:37 AM Y
why?? '
actually wanted to post smthing new de... regarding to K... bt nw... G is back... a bit afraid dat later R is back as well... haha...
just get to know K like 3 days?... haha.. den was telling him i'm sick yst.. he say wanna pick me up n send me hm after sch... so ya.. first time i gt to see him is like in the car... haha..
he stil nt bad larx... gt common face.. quite thin also... den he send me up after dat.. when he on the way hm dat time he was like sms-ing me.. actually i'm nt reali v skinny bt sexy too...
haha.. so funny.. first time see him jiu talk a lot le..
well.. for G lehx.. haix.. he msg me during midnigt say dat he was sorry.. dat day was too tired after duty le.. so didnt ask me out... bt haix... dunno lehx.. suddenly lidat sms me... den i was telling kelly.. she was saying gt 2 possibility lorx.. either he is reali playing or he is reali tired lorx.. cos they gt outfield on wed and only come back on thurs which is yst.. den her bf was saying this wk they are super busy lo...
well... nw i scat later R will come back to look for me le... don wanna have so much of a trouble to settle so much things.. hard to handle sia.. haha....
Thursday, August 28, 2008 ' 4:58 PM Y
s!ck again... '
keep on falling sick recently...
was having fever just now... hope it will be better le... cos tml i wanna go eat steamboat!!!
so long didnt eat le.. COCA!!! TOM YAM!!!
haha... been craving it so long...
waiting for tml... haha...
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 ' 5:11 PM Y
another day.. '
it's another day end soon... so fast...
after resting for 5days at hm... haha... today come back work so reluctant... haha..
was talking to B yst.. he was commenting on my msn pic (at hm de) he was saying dat it is nice and/or pretty de.. den i was asking him who u wan to lie beside with... and he reply me with a question... u wanna lie beside me mahx... i was like... er.. haha..
at times i reali wanna fall to B.. but i think i will hurt him.. i know he can provide me with wad i wan at this point of time... bt i dont think i can do much for him... if i agree it will seems like i'm toying him le...
Monday, August 25, 2008 ' 11:57 AM Y
haix... '
think G is like another R le ba...? ask me out bt den in the end like treat it as nth lidat... i also dunno wad is he doing le worx... y is all guys like R?.. say one den do another one.. ask me out le den didnt contact... msg him den didnt reply.. y r they lidat?... at times i feel dat he is interested in me.. at times feel dat he didnt even bother... y i always meet these kind of guys?...
i'm so worry dat i will be hurt again... hope he wil reply me... after this time i think forget it le ba.. continuing it like make myself get more hurt.. haix...
--- he reali didnt reply me even though he is awake.. think he met another new girl in club le ba.. dat is y ... bt.. forget it lo... should have expect such a thing will happen le.. think i will feel hurt is due to the previous r/s le.. nw will think dat every guy is lidat... reali have no confidence le.. was thinking of my previous r/s when i gt 2 time... dat flash back keep coming out to my mind... cant help bt to think... is every guy the same...? it's so accurate.. once bitten twice shy...
it's time to build up my confidence le ba.. only i can help myself.. only the right person can heal the wound... once damage... no matter wad kind of med and/or glue will nv be able to put it back.. there will still be the crack lines etc...
Sunday, August 24, 2008 ' 9:57 PM Y
worry le... '
hmm... actually suppose to meet G tonight... but heard that during sat they didnt get to slp till today afternoon... which is like ard 13.30 when they reach hm... as for G he went clubbing on fri nite.. which bascially till sat morning.. den go back for duty... till today afternoon... so was telling him tml den meet lorx... den he didnt reply le.. jus msg him wad he plan for tml.. bt he didnt reply me yet.. think he is stil slping ba...
i'm so kinda worry dat he will be like R... cannot make it or wad den didnt inform or wad.. i'm so worry of it.. think he reali hurt me too much... causing a wound in me... i reali need someone to patch up the wound... i'm feeling so damaged... i'm so afraid that he cannot make it tml.. i'm really frighten..
omg...! '
it's only 2-3 days dat i didn blog.. den i think now i can write an essay le.. so many things...
R came to find me on msn yst.. keep on insist of meeting me... say wanna bring me to meet his parents.. say he cant be contacted is gt reason one.. for work n future de... but i think it's just excuse only lorx... all are his selfish reasons... only when he needs it den he will come and look for me... if i'm not online will he still come and look for me? will he stil insist to go club with me.. bring me home?... i doubt so..
since afternoon i didnt reply him.. and he didnt even do anything... only during midnight ard 2am den he msg me.. 'take care. slp liao.' bt ya... i also didnt reply him.. he also didnt bother to check on me... wad m i to him? when he needs me just look for me... when he dont jus throw me aside.. expecting me to wait for him?... i'm sorry.. i m no longer the young girl that i'm used to be in the past le.. i've grow up.. different thinking..
dat day when i'm super high in club... before i'm drunk... i msg G saying ' hey.. i miss u...' think i m reali super high lorx... den he reply me in the morning... 'haha... sia la..' er... haha.. i dunno wad he means larx.. bt we denote it as in he 'an shuang' larx.. haha.. den after dat we were sms-ing quite a bit.. den he suddenly says.. 'tt time send u hm u nv invite me in..' den i was telling him he didnt ask.. den say nxt time he send me hm again den invite him in lorx... den he was asking me usually who will be at hm... so was telling him my parents sis n maid lo... den he was like saying 'so u gonna intro me to ur parents?' which is like... haha... y? den he was saying sun nite wan come my hse... den say i say wanna invite him in de... den was saying my mama will stil be awake larx.. if he don mind... den he was saying he anything de... den i was asking if he always go to girls hse de.. den he says he only like ex gf de hse lorx... which is like... er.. wad u mean..? den y he wan to come to my hse?...
when i tel him i still sick on fri.. he was like asking 'wad happen sia? having fever?' haha.. like quite concerning lidat.. den when i tel him.. he ask me to rest well... den today when i msg him if he still wanna go out with them (kelly n jj) tonight... den he says dunno lehx... he dunno wan go out with them mahx or he only wan to go out with me??... haha... kelly n wk also say mayb he only wanna go out with me... haha.. i also dunno le...
now reali stuck in between... 1 nt yt end... 1 gg to start... omg...!!!!!!!
Thursday, August 21, 2008 ' 11:39 AM Y
drunk nite... '
wow... went to dbl o again.. this time with Tavis friends... drink a lot lorx... reali can knock out..
was dancing so close with Jansten... haaha... think i'm reali fooling ard..
mixing of alcohol is reali no fun... volka + wine + lambo + shots + wiskey wow.. it seems like free flow lidat... add up think is more than 1 bottle le.. haha..
yest nite was reali terrible... nv want to get drunk again le.. some more was sick and running fever during the day time... den didnt slp enough for the pass few days...
it is still rather enjoyable night... ^_^
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 ' 3:43 PM Y
the first step... '
kelly use my phone to msg G without my approval and notice... i only get to knw it when she had sent out to him... so when he replied.. i was like.. ya.. i'm still fine...
haha..
we chat quite a while... den he had this mindset that i m still attached and that he is nt reali wanna go out or wad kind... he ask me to ask my bf along when i go out with kelly n JJ... bt i was like telling him.. er.. just ended.. no bf currently.. den he was asking me what happen... so i told him.. well.. it was a long story larx... bt long ago already had problems.. so might as well end it.. den his next reply was like... oh.. if you say so...
wa.. this is like huh??... wad u mean?? if you say so... say wad?.. i tot ppl usually will be like saying.. oh ok.. things lidat?? haha...
well me n kelly was thinking that maybe he a bit 'an shuang' haha... but dunno also... hopefully.. haha... bad horx.. well... den after few sms.. he was asking wad movie we are watching on sun... well.. kelly says she thinks that he will go... if nt he will not ask wad movie we watching...
haha.. hope he will go.. and don so quiet.. haha..
on the other hand... i saw R online.. bt he didnt come to look for me... and i had reali declare that i m single now... so.. it stil seems like dangling in air also... see hw it goes ba..
Monday, August 18, 2008 ' 12:38 PM Y
Dream - Break Up '
Was browsing Ai Li's blog and found this link on Dream Dictionary... I have dream of this several times - breaking up with R think is few months ago or probably is last year or wad... forget le... This is the explaination... Break-Up :
To dream that you break up with your significant other, indicates that there is something in your life that you need to let go no matter how hard it may be. Think this dreams and the explaination tells me that i should actually let go of it already... no matter how hard or how bad i feel for him... it's time... i didnt make the wrong choice... http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/b3.htm
Friday, August 15, 2008 ' 5:29 PM Y
Grass Greener at the Other side... '
haha... was reading both Kelly's and Veron's blog this morning... discussing on the grass greener on the other side...
i think it is rather true... it always depend on person's perception... like when i m used to be single, i always wanted to be attached.. and when i m finally attached, i wanted to be single... now that i have declared single.. i got this feeling of wanted to be attached again... haha... very contridicting right?...
nah.. i dont even knw what is the best for me... well.. ppl like to say 'u are still young... should enjoy first' which is true.. bt there have to be ppl ard you whom will appreciate your beauty..
so you will have the confidence in going ard...
Thursday, August 14, 2008 ' 12:23 PM Y
12 Lotus '
went to watch 12 Lotus yesterday... not bad larx... makes me cry and laugh at the same time...
the saddest part is where her dad is dying soon...
he is like asking her not to fall for the guy who holds her hands tightly but looking at others...
the guy who hugs her tightly but thinking of others... that guy is just a jerk (in the movie)
"no love, where got pain... no pain, where got love..." is a common term they use in the movie..
haha... but the pain cause her to go insane... she is so poor thing...
quite worth the watch larx.. but u must be able to understand hokkien first... if not you may not get what it is trying to convey...
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 ' 4:16 PM Y
still stuck... '
i'm still so afraid to get hurt... i think is due to my previous wound... don reali dare to fall in love again... feeling so hard to trust any guys again...
who can i turn to?... seeing ppl ard me being in love and feeling so sweet... but i just dunno when will i have such a feeling... dunno who i can trust.. who i can commit and who is good to me...
dat mr. r still didnt contact me... since i ask him dat question which is like 2wks ago... he does not reali care about this... so who m i to him?...
but anyway... i'm still rather happy now... able to go out with anyone i like and want to... no restriction... and still... i m as busy as ever... haha...
