Tuesday, July 29, 2008 ' 11:44 AM Y
oh gosh... '
i finally break the news to him... i think he gt the hint...
i really hate myself for hurting him... i know sorry is not the right word to say now.. he is good to me.. he trust me and he nv wants to question me on the things i do... what more should i ask for? i should be contented right? but it's just not me... i wanted to play to enjoy myself...
i know by doing so he will get hurt and more... will he be able to take it? i think he deserves a girl who will reali appreciate him and love him with wad she has... i'm just taking everything that he gives me and returning nth to him... will he reali be able to live with such minimum love that i give him?
i have no idea wad is my feelings for him... i dunno is it love or brotherly love or just companionship... i seriously have no idea for it... to continue with it is not a problem but to remain lidat in life is so lifeless and hurtful... i will then feel more guilty for it.. i dunno how am i going to face him.. wad shld i tell him and hw can i bring it out?
i don't worth to be with u...
