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Monday, September 20, 2010 ' 10:34 PM Y

to change or nt to change? '

i'm still not very sure to change or not to change my job...
its very free and i'm having lots of freedom in this job.. but the pay is less.. the politics is there... i just dont like it...
how to now?... to change?.. or stay put??


Makes me wonders ;


Tuesday, August 31, 2010 ' 10:25 PM Y

Mr. Young '

went to 987 RSVP last sat... it features 21 Hot Girls at Silk.. a new club at Orchard Hotel...
we managed to get free drinks.. but everyone have to be present at the bar to 'register' for their drinks.. quite troublesome.. unlike some other times where the guys can go over to collect on behalf... or even collect a few more cups at one go.. wasnt drunk neither high.. end up spending $48 to buy a jug of tequila lime...

hmm.. Silk is quite a good place to hang out.. only few '-' point for it... its rather far! i've gotta walk quite a distance in order to reach there.. along the way.. it seems to be quite dangerous for girls/ladies... that is my personal thoughts.. unlike other clubs, Silk does not have too many people around and not as complicated as others... personally i quite like that place... but it seems to lack of something which my friends and i just cannot figure it out...

took the best photo that night with... Mr. Young!!!


haha... still very happy about it... i'm so surprise that Mr. Young remembers me! omg... its only my 2nd time to RSVP and he remembers me... its me...! *blush*

well... someone asked me 'why u like Mr. Young so much?'... hmm... i also not sure what is the reason... jus because of feeling?... haha... maybe he is funny.. not bad looking.. got the size.. different.. interesting.. haha... i only know that i loose control when i see him... super active and hyper... but i'm not those that will 'chase' after that specific person no matter what... i'm still realistic and awake...! haa... in this photo Mr. Young is really lucky! haha...

o ya... as said i wanna look for new job... and i've been searching online this afternoon... there is this agent from Adeacco called me this evening to update on my personal info... he also asked if i'm still looking for job at the moment... that is like so coincedence... well.. he said if there is suitable position he will get back to me... so let see... maybe it is really time to go?...



Makes me wonders ;


Monday, August 30, 2010 ' 11:37 PM Y

new life... '

i've finally completed my degree.. i know my results is terrible.. bt at least there is still a pass... finally...!

i think i have to find a new job... my pay sucks! i dont think i can get high pay if i still stay in this company..! sianx...

find job!!!!!!!!!!!


Makes me wonders ;


Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ' 11:22 PM Y

haunted~ '

the past seems to be keep haunting me... to the extend that i really want to hide.. but i cant... i'm not sure what to do next... i want to be happy.. but i seems to be sad..

this kind of feeling is so hard to explain.. so hard to determine... how should i feel?? i have no idea...

am really lost...


Makes me wonders ;


Saturday, October 10, 2009 ' 1:02 AM Y

!!! d-e-s-s-e-r-t-s '

it's been quite some time since i last blog... not sure what to blog here... cos there are lots of things happening these few months...

wonder have i changed or what is going on... human are so complicated.. so hard to please.. what can i expect and what can i do?... staying put or change and adapt..? when i change and adapt... will others change n adapt too?... what i want now?...

dont really feel like talking much.. don wanna face ppl... feel like just staying home... playing com.. not thinking anything... just me and myself... crying does not help.. tears just cant roll down... brain is keep working... things keep piling up... ppl keep changing and expecting.. loads increase.. what can i do now?...

its like 4yrs.. if nth wrong.. but..

i've grown and change.. to a person whom i no longer understand... not sure is it for the better or worst.. feel like getting away... dont think anything or anyone can help... i just want to be alone...

*stay away*


Makes me wonders ;


Monday, September 14, 2009 ' 12:13 PM Y

expectation '

i think that i'm expecting too much... am i?...

i'm told in the face that my admin is lazy... after few days of observation... indeed... i think she is... but there is no evidence of it... its merely my perception. am i expecting too much from her... or am i suppose to expect more on her?... i usually think that the amount you are paid will be the amount of work you do... but i currently doubt so now...

she is some one older than me by at least 20years.. and is said to be under my supervision... but than the things she do, is just normal data entry and ordering as well as arranging dispatch... things dont seems to be as easy as before... my manager expect more... and i have no choice but to expect more from her... to her maybe she will think it is ok... but to my manager... he will think that i did not do my part well...

things seems to be going out of control soon... to the extend that i think i'm doing the things and making the decision... a simple thing cannot be done and she will ask me to do it... taking fri for example... i'm constantly on the line with customers and all... so i wont be able to make another phone call to my other customers... she.. being my assistant suppose to help me if there is really a need... all my back end staff keep calling and asking about the data... and she still have the cheek to tell me that customer says will send in 5min and now is already 6min... but she did nothing...!!! expecting me to do the rest...!!! even normal delivery to my customer i have to arrange... these few days i keep asking her to contact my dispatch and all... but she did not always do that... she take it that as if she didnt hear me...

this is not happening once... or twice... but several occasion... omg... guess she is just taking for granted that i will do everything...

i've been expecting a lot from co-workers, family and friends... to the extend that i'm not sure where the fault lies... its always said expect the unexpected... but then... i'm always expecting things to go on my way... am i being spoiled... becoming a spoiled brad?...

a lot of things happen recently... i am just to wear out to go handle and say about all of them bit by bit... hope i'm not running into any depression state... but come to think... i really enjoying staying at home more often than before... home never be the same as the past... maybe is that the lifestyle of my family had changed... more bonding and more home-like than before... i never like home when i'm young... but now... its another different case... i just dread to go out after work... sometimes even weekend...

*everyone is changing...*


Makes me wonders ;


Friday, August 28, 2009 ' 3:51 PM Y

|ies '

feels like a fool~

everything is just a lie... i nv expect... tried to believe in you... but u just disappoint me... again and again...

heard a news from my cousin... am not affected at all... but den... when i think n think again... i feel like a fool... listening and believing in wad u said... thinking that u might be just like me... or wadever... nv did i expect...

lesson learn... a leopard can nv change its spots... believe in yourself rather than words or sayings...


Makes me wonders ;


Friday, August 21, 2009 ' 8:17 AM Y

... ... ... '

its the very rare time when i wake up so urber early... having a very mixed feeling now... not knowing should i feel relief or should i feel sad... she didnt wait for me to visit her in hospital and now she is gone... y she didnt wait for me?... i still intend to visit her in the late morning before gg out... but now no nd le...

happy => cos she is able to rest finally... after so many years of slogging... she is able to go to a better place in the after life...

sad => is that i cant get to see her for the last time and she is gone... sad when i had lost a kin in my life... sad is that i will not get to see her anymore... sad is when "tml nv come"... always say tml when wanting to visit her when she's at home.. sad is when i didnt make my stand clear to send her to the hospital or my hse on the day she fall dwn...

but now.. there is no point for that le... she's gone... and gone forever to a better place... but still she will be there in my heart.. despite the fact that i am not very very close with her.. or in a very very gd terms with her... but.. its always the boring things that we remember...

a relief is that my papers are finally finished... am able to go down to the wake... not affecting my studies... maybe she did wait for me.. but is to wait for me to complete my exam before she really move on... cos heard from my mum that few days back she is already in critical condition le... i think its on wed.. which really affected my studies... cant really concentrate... but yst.. my aunt says she is better le... can talk... which made my heart feel lighter... and am able to perform better for exam... after everything.. she just moved on...

i will always remember how you treat me when i'm young.. what i had done... and how u try to protect me... and also let me grow up to be more brave n independent...
thanks for your teaching... R.I.P. and lead a better after life...


Makes me wonders ;


Monday, August 10, 2009 ' 3:26 AM Y

? Question Mark ? '

i have lots of things to blog abt... bt i'm nt sure where to start... damn... what shld i start with??... well.. think base on date ba... it shld be easier... although i'm more excited to blog abt the more recent case... hahaha

hmm... i'm just too lazy to back track till the very front.. lets start with steph bday ba... i suppose that is the best day to start...

well... celeb steff bday at suki sushi (HG branch) same as mine... we went there to feast on the sashimi... its just nv enough.. hahaha... managed to trick steph the way they trick me on my bday... hahaha... we bought her a cake n an autograph book... she insisted on money but i dont wish to give her ang bao only.. so went to buy her an autograph book.. hahah... kaili n i wrote something on it...


hmm... i wanted to post steph photo de.. bt dunno y those photos just cant copy to my computer... haix...
ok well... kaili n i went in first to get everything prepared... n i keep reminding steph to give me a call when she reaching... so i went out to wait for her and bluffed her that kaili is in the washroom and we go in to wait for kaili... n steph really believe me o... hahaha... same reaction as me... "free seating arx?" hahahha...
as she walk closer.. she saw kaili n the cake... hahahaha... not forgeting her present... had some commercials in between and rush for our sashimi... really hope that she will like the gift and also the little surprise...
*i know there are places whereby the sashimi are much more better... but HG Plaza is the nearest to our place le..*
ok... next...
was dont pratically nothing in office on friday... so i went to clean my phone n keyboard... well.. actually i have things to do larx... just that i choose not to do... hahhaha... i had this keyboard by dunno who... n its rather dirty when i first use it... didnt have the time to really clean it.. till fri...
before...

after...

real great difference rite?? hahahaa... i really have the sense of achievement... i'm so happy... but at the same time... my nails hurt... hahaaha...

yup... i went to watch UP...!!! it's so nice... the whole show seems so innocent and naive... as in the little boy... its like a nv able to fulfill kind of event and mostly seems like fairytale... whereby the dogs can talk and that lots of balloon can help to fly a house and they can last for like few days!!! hahaha... but its a heart warming movie...

so paisei... watch cartoon also can make me tear... bt not to the extend that the tears dropping down larx... still bearable... =X

went to st james again... this time round dont really feel the enjoyment and fun... maybe is cos of the change of crew.. maybe is that the ppl ard are not high enough.. or maybe i do not drink enough... or worst... i dont like to club le... hahaha... well.. i also not sure which is it.. finally manage to finish up the bottle... went to powerhouse after that and found that powerhouse is super full house...!! it is not normal but super... ppl who need to pay for the entrance are q-ing... ppl who are members are q-ing... ppl who are re-entering are q-ing...!!! the whole entrance are packed!!!! end up we went to modiva and chill out at the seats outside... managed to talk to von and exchange some stories... hahaha...


after talking... it posts me a question... is it coincidence or is it fated?... or is it not the one...

went over to my godparents place this afternoon... its my godpa's 61st birthday...!!! bought him a top.. but i'm not sure will he like it... i hope he does... its been a long time since i last gather with them...



my godpa... he dont look that old right?

my godgrandma... hahahaha....

went back home for MJ with my aunt n uncle n dad... was initially very bored when playing.. bt thanks to someone who sms me when i'm playing MJ... i was so bored and brain dead to the extend that i tot of ol'school game... hahaha... its those... "if this this this happens... means that this this this will come true..."

hahaha... n i've tried several times... result shows that.. at the very last round... it really happen...!!! bt i keep on not believing it and made the very last "question"... saying that if i managed to recouperate my lost of up to $20-30 means that this this this will happen... i have to say that before that round.. my "drawer" has only $5 or lesser... n at the end of the game it had around $36...!!! which means it will happen??

another thing is that... when i'm about to msg someone... that someone msg me as well... i'm like typing halfway and the sms tone goes off... feels a little happy when sms-ing that person...

but all in all... what is the underlying meaning???...

*if u want to know more abt it... ask me... bt i'm nt sure if i will tell u... but u can still try...*

hahahahaa....



Makes me wonders ;


Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ' 10:42 AM Y

rand0mX... '

had so many things... but i'm so lazy... someone say always come into my blog bt there is no update... so nw... i shall update a long one... *i try*

1. was sick last week... down with flu n sore throat.. n some sort of breathing difficulty.. went to see doc... but he tot i trying to 'geng' mc...!!! when i told him i got some breathing difficulty he said it is due to block nose... bt i told him i dont have block nose... den he said.. it is due to running nose.. bt i dont have that at that point of time... so it does not really means that... den he said ur lungs and heart are perfectly alright... -_-"
i am speechless... wad a doct... and he only give me 1 day mc... if i'm not sick or so i wont be going to see doc... duh... stupid doc... end up i have to take 1 day leave for fri... cos i'm still having headache... n the bloody med is so useless... i took the med on wed night... n thurs my sore throat is worst... wth... till now.. i'm still having cough, sore throat n some runny nose... just that it is not so serious...

2. von n meli was sick last wk as well... they both were dwn with fever and flu ba... n now they are alright le ba... hope the stupid virus will stop ba.. so scary...

3. went to coca for lunch on sat... yummy... it is almost a year since we last had it... went with maree, tim, yx n thiong... so full n bloated larx... had 10% discount.. wahahaha.. finally saw william n susan and catch up a little... finds that almost everyone had changed and ppl are coming and go... most of the old staff had left... next time i think will be harder to keep in contact le ba...
went to ION after that... it was amazingly huge and atas... with 4 level of basement and 3 level on the top... but it looks like a maze... have to pass 3 doors to enter the toilet... wahaha... interesting... n it is so so packed... at the basement... at the top floor where those high end products are sold... LV, Prada.. it is... WOW... nice... but can die larx... walk there... hahaha...
end up went back to Taka for WZ present.. bought Tim's present as well... went home at ard 7+ and was waiting for bus at Hereen and this Ang Mo guy was there as well... maree was talking to her friend who had some problem at that time... so i'm there looking at bus... so this guy approach me and talk...
"there are a lot of birds" him
"ya.. its always like that" me
"are they always so noisy?" him
"yup.. this is very common here" me
"u know what birds are those?" "are those black colour kind?" him
"erm... i'm not sure" me...
after reply him and smile at him i turned to look at maree... stare at her... she immediately told her friend that she will call her back and talk to me... omg... the first comment she gave me was... "wah... waiting for bus only u can give ppl ta san arx" i'm like... its nt i want de... she n fang gave the same comments... u are just like a magnet but always attract the wrong stuff...
duh... i dont wan larx... nonono... 1 very nice comment that she gave was that "u dont try also got ppl ta san... i try so hard also dont have... =( " aiyo... i dont think this is gd... gt 1 gd bf is enough le larx... i dont wan so many others le... tired...

4. my exam is coming...!!! its on 19 and 20 Aug... how shld i take my leave?? its on wed n thurs... i'm thinking of taking 19-21... so i can rest on fri... shld i?? i think i might ba... after these 3 days i left 5 days leave... shld be enough for my next sem ba...? i hope so... haha... if nt then take unpaid leave lo... wad to do... haix...

5. this malay colleague of my is always pissing me to the max... what he shld do he just didnt bother and didnt do it... what that is not under his job scope he is doing... like reply to customer on delivery and all... shld be i'm doing it... he wants to reply for me... and the planning of the products to be done for my shipment stuff he jus ignore and all... wa lau... wad the hell u doing...? sickening sia...

6. i'm still enjoying my Sims 3... so fun... now it is the 3rd generation time... wahahah... so fun fun fun... i am so playing sims... have explored a lot of things and hoping to explore more of it... hahah... bt not tonight ba... cos having lesson... shall play more this wk... cos nxt wk so i have to study and prepare for my exam le... stress...

7. there are 2 classmates of my sis having H1N1... so scary... her class has roughly half of the students fall ill with fever.. and they had to stop sch for a week... so she dont have to go to sch this week since tue... n yst her teacher called up and said that her class has 2 students contacted H1N1 and 1 of them is her partner in class... how unlucky it is... she now has to monitor her own temperature and report to her teacher every morning... if she really down with fever i think sooner or later will be me le ba..? i dont wan lehx... i still want to take my exam... hahaha... no more money for unpaid MC or leave le...

hmm... think this shld be the end of it le ba... will upload my photos when i use internet at home and i'm not lazy at all ba... wahahaa... slowly wait ba...


Makes me wonders ;


Monday, July 27, 2009 ' 4:21 PM Y

Quiz Box '

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

~The Real U~

Here is the analysis:

  1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
  2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
  3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
  4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
  5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
~what is your personality love style~

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

~what type of personality do you have~

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

~what does being a friend really mean to you~

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?

You will never expect to control your boyfriend or husband. Your boyfriend and you will take turns to make decision and the decision is often acceptable to both of you. Whatever you want to let him know, you can just tell him straightforwardly. This is a good relationship, a pretty modern one.

~Your Marriage~

How will you choose your Mr Right?

No matter how many men you have beating a path to your front door, when it comes to picking Mr Right, you'll listen to your parents. Not only will you become weary of all your suitors, deep down you don't quite trust your own judgment.

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you.

When will you get married?

As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.

What sort of wife will you be?

If your hubby is crazy enough to ask you to do silly things, you may as well have fun with him. You'll make a fun-loving wife.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be quiet and won't give you a hard time - they'll be a joy to have around. However, you should teach them to be stronger and more confident in themselves. Otherwise they might grow up to be losers.

How loyal are you?

You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you're a bit of a flirt, but actually you've got a loyal heart. You'll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.

~~~
i think this is sufficient for u ppl to read le... lazy... hahahaha....


Makes me wonders ;


Friday, July 10, 2009 ' 3:43 PM Y

hope for speed recovery... '

hmm... my leg has yet to recover... but lucky it is so much better now... though my toe is still blue black kind and a little swollen... but at least i can walk le... not like the first day... wa... cant really walk sia...

yst had diarrhea the whole day.. cos of the antibiotic... called to check with the clinic if i can stop the med.. and yes.. i can.. haha... immediately that night i stop having diarrhea.. phew~

still thinking shld i go to see doc.. or let it recover by itself... a bit dont dare.. cos i scat pain... but i also quite worried if my toe dislocate or not le... hw arx?? and horx... i also dunno go where see doc.. wahahaha...

i'm a plain jane recently.. cos of eye infection... i cant put on make up.. so i wore specs to work.. hehe... seems quite relax to wear such an attire.. but then... very hard to match my clothes.... think i still nt very used to put on specs ba... my eye shall be ok by this wk.. n nxt wk i can put on make up still le... hehe...

here are some of my photos without make up... is it scary or natural?? or make up better?? or there is not much diff?? hahaha...

the above 2 pics are taken like quite sometimes ago le.. where no stress over my shoulder.. cos exam just over and its holiday... so look better rite??

this photo seems to be rather scary... hahaha... so shag and messy... a pleasant surprise given by my poly friends cos my bday n i stay at home to study... look so ugly.. hahaha.. or shld i say natural... hahaha...

k le.. enough of self critizing.. hahah... guess later u all will be sick of it...

wOoOo HoOoOo... It's FrdaY...!!! yeah... bt tml morning nd to meet for project... -_-"



Makes me wonders ;


Wednesday, July 8, 2009 ' 1:01 PM Y

bad day =/ '

had such a bad day... this wk to be exact... i got eye infection since sat... and today is so much better le... but... another bad thing happen again...

i FELL down this morning!!!

damn... the moment i step out of my room i jus slip and fall.. my left leg hit the door of my mum's room... and my 2nd toe bent upward... now it is swollen.. and pain... can barely walk properly.. still have to go school tonight.. to do project... haix...

y is it so unlucky??...

in work.. the problem caused by the mud had not been resolved since last week.. and despite on mc yesterday.. i still went back to work... haix... today.. still have so many things to clear and follow up... headache...


Makes me wonders ;


Sunday, July 5, 2009 ' 12:53 AM Y

d|sappo|nted '

i'm so lazy to blog... my life seems like a massive distruction... ppl at work seems to be getting more n more out of hand... i'm feeling so tired... it seems like there is no one day i can feel at ease when working... i will always be angry and pissed off by some colleagues...

went to watch ice age 3 with my poly friends... initially nv really tot of watching de.. den this rare guest - jb suddenly prompt to watch movie... and the 2 movies he choose is transformers or ice age.. well.. von watch transformers le.. so we left with ice age... haha... its really a funny show... it shows how ones' close friends are being affected when one is happily attached/wed with a family.. how the wife manage to help the husband to salvage the friendship... should go watch... nice and some sort educational...

i'm so disappointed with this particular someone... the disappointment sink in deeper every few weeks i suppose... i am happy for her to have a bf bt on the other hand sad for her to have lose her friends... everything frm the past and all the memories n help n long friendship does not even weigh the same as a yr r/s with her bf... should i say i'm sorry for u?? or should i say u did the right thing?... all the bits n pieces really makes me feel very disappointed... seriously feel that i've wasted all my time and energy on you for the past few years... i really feel like having to erased off frm my memory... everything u do nw makes me feel so upset... bt yet i cant really erase u off...

all i can say now is that... ur r/s with ur bf is way much impt than anything else... it makes me really see and understand how strong is our friendship... everything that built up from the past had jus collaspe and soon will be washed away...


Makes me wonders ;


Tuesday, June 30, 2009 ' 3:16 PM Y

fucking bustard '

i'm so bloody pissed with my mud colleague... so so angry................

wondering why am i so unlucky to have such a person in my office... stupid is not the word for him... neither does dumb suits him... i think it should be lazy, bustard, cunning... fuck!!!

i'm just too pissed le... on thurs when i trying to study for my test.. he called me at 11.30pm to ask me for help in locating my colleague as he cant get her through phone... he dont need to slp doesnt means that ppl dont nd to slp rite?? bloody hell...

yst i'm on mc... and yst night he text me... "Eunice, tml kindly come early not late external audit, msg from LT, tanx"... fuck... when i see this msg my blood boils... i dont mind u txt me to remind me nt to be late... but u dont have to use my manager as a backup... i know what is impt and wad i'm doing... i appreciate you in reminding me there is an external audit the nxt day... but u dont have to say its a msg frm my manager even though it is really a msg pass dwn by him... i hate ppl use names of those higher authority to ask me do certain things... i just hate it to the core...!!!

so... just like my normal character... i purposely late for work... i dont give a damn... even though my manager and MR is ard with the auditor... i just came in with a black face... i dont want to talk to him..

as the day pass... during noon time... he asked me a stupid qn... he asked me if he can sign the COC of the product.. fuck... he shld knw it lorx... i'm nt frm production y shld u ask me??? so i told him i asking LT to send it for me... n he said he will wait for my QA to be back to sign... so... everyone just wait lorx... y shld i make decision for him?? i get lesser pay than him.. i don have to carry so much responsibility... y shld i?? since he says wait.. so lets wait lorx...

and the final think that pissed me off up to this time is that... he sent me an email asking if i had sent out the quotation to my customer...!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! since when am i under him??? my manager didnt even question me.. y shld he question me?? and he cc the email to almost everyone in office.. including my manager... wad he wants to show?? he is working n i m not?? or he is concern of the thing or wad?? furthermore, i shld nt be sending quotation out n cc the rest in the office.. cos its price sensitive.. and y will they require to knw the price n all?? bloody hell... so i just click on the reply all.. and replied... i've sent out the quotation in the morning. this makes it seems like i did my job and he is too slow in asking me abt it...

and... even normal sending of quotation to customer, most of the times i didnt cc to my manager and he didnt even ask me anything.. so wad makes him have the cheek to ask me?? when i tell him abt customer thing.. he doesnt seems to bother... nobody likes him in the office.. even my manager who doesnt want to talk to him anymore regarding to work.. cos even if we tell him anything.. he doesnt even really bother abt it... wad is the point??

AAANNNGGGGRRRRRRYYYYY........................
AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH....!!!!!!!!


Makes me wonders ;







Y MiX~ '

e[YOU]n|x
what i wear
where i go
who i'm out with
how i bring myself
u just wont find the real me
u will require a lifetime to really understand n know me well '



Y w|shes '

world peace
good health
good result
stay happy always
happy family
less club
less drinking
more money
get my degree
get a car
find the right one
hmm~ dunno what i still wish for already will add on if there are more

Y fr|endX '


Y FaV '


Y Twittx '



Y Memor|es '


Rewind back, those memories:
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
December 2009
August 2010
September 2010


Y Scream-ed '